Motherhood – contradictory happiness

“Today, we will become a mother…”. This phrase is thrown by an obstetrician-gynecologist in prenatal ward, sobered me. Now that’s a different countdown, now will start a new life, both literally and figuratively. I will not describe how I became a mother physically. In this case I want to consider the psychological aspect of my new life.

What is motherhood?

Motherhood is a controversial happiness. How would not like to say so, but this phrase stuck in my head for a long time. Motherhood is happiness! Happiness! Happiness! This is a boundless, overwhelming feeling. So what are the contradictions. I fiercely love my children, but something is getting me down, and It came after the birth of children. At least I thought so.

Actually, the contradictions begin long before birth. Every woman has a certain fear, staring at the test for pregnancy determination, regardless of what she expects to see there. Whether the fear of what her hopes again are not met, and ahead of another long night of loneliness, or the fear of new life that already beats you’ve got a heart, or simply fear of the reluctance of the appearance of life itself.

However, the nature, as a result, takes over, and gradually the fear is replaced by joy, and the woman begins to get used to his new position. There begins her new, exciting Continue reading →